Hi Internets,
My mom is getting married tomorrow. I don't think I mentioned that. Then again it has been like 6+ weeks since I blogged. I had kidney stone and started writing about it, but it felt so whiny I never published it. And then I got so busy.
I detest busyness.
I don't even know what it is I want to write. I feel so many mixed emotions about my family that I'm probably better off going back to therapy and figuring it out. I do know that I'm tired of things changing. Mom wont just be my mom anymore. She'll be a wife. Maybe this is what it's like when your kids grow up and get married. You're so happy for them and excited. But also sad, because they aren't just yours anymore. I guess that's what I'm feeling.
Except I really don't have the time to feel it. I don't need to go into detail about it, any other Mormon reading this knows what I'm talking about. It often feels like every minute of your day is spoken for between church and family. Suffice it to say I am definitely learning humility and my own mortal limits. Something else I detest.
So lets talk about things I like.
Star Trek. As I type this my husband and I are watching Into Darkness, which came out this week, again. In the last 3 weeks I have watched every Star Trek movie ever made. Because I OWN every Star Trek movie ever made. THAT is something I like. When I feel stressed I distract myself. Science Fiction has always been a lovely diversion. Plus it reminds me of my dad. :-)
Congrats to your mom! Your feelings sound reasonable, though; it's always tough when huge changes like that happen.
ReplyDeleteAnd soon the Primary program will be over! You can do it!
Love you.
Em
This is some what quit interesting blog about my future .
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