Thursday, December 14, 2006

being a mom sucks...

...when your kid is sick.  And you feel so helpless because they can't tell you what's going on yet.  I take it for granted because he never gets sick.  The only other time he's actually been sick was this random fever that ended in a seizure and then went away.  At first we thought it was his egg allergies getting worse, then the fever hit. And kept going up.  Doctor says it's stomach flu (thank goodness) and it's going around bad.  Poor kid can't eat anything.  At least the tylenol is staying down today so his fever is lower.

I hate that stomach flu mimicks so many crappy diseases like west nile virus, appendicitis, and meningitis.  It makes it next to impossible to not be a paranoid parent.

Sunday, December 10, 2006

The eco house

I haven't talked about it for a while because it's still not attainable, but I'm still hoping to someday own one. Resale is a bit of a problem so I want to do it when we're more established.

W talked me out of a dome home after sharing an article discussing the down side (upkeep is a pain because of the design).

While I love the look and feel of older homes, and the idea of not contributing to sprawl, I don't think I want the maintenance that comes with owning one. I'll want to update it into a more sustainable home, but I think I'll put more into it then I'll get out.  So I think I can rationalize building a new home if it's a green home.

Now my problem is what kind of home to build: strawbale,  concrete, cob, tire bale...how unconventional should I get with this?  I still have zoning to deal with, but I think strawbale will be the easiest to pull off.

Of course, the home itself isn't the only thing that makes it green, it's also about what I put into it.  A good thing to remember in case this doesn't work out.

Let me know if you've come across anything.

Thursday, December 7, 2006

Thank you mom.

She sent me this quote and I wanted to share it.


"Equally complete now is each of our lives before the Lord. We explore them sequentially because we are time-blind. But the Lord, perceiving time as space, sees us as we are, not as we are becoming. We are, for Him, beings without time. We are continually before Him – the totality of our psyches, personalities, bodies, choices, and behaviors.



If this is so – knowledge of this fact should change our entire approach to life. For life becomes, then, not a cumulative, additive process, one in which we layer on increments of perfection like successive coats of lacquer. Life is rather a challenge to discover who we are, not to determine who we shall become. Who were we, and what were we when we shouted for joy as the foundations of the earth were laid? What feats did we perform in the great battle in heaven?...... In what way are we created in the image of God? The greater prophecy is not what we shall become, but what we are. The challenge is not to add on perfection, but to strip away blindness and corruption and to discover what (and who) we are. The essence is greater than the promise. We are better subsumed [occupied] in being than we are in becoming."



Lael J. Woodbury

Monday, December 4, 2006

Holy. Funny.

My son just walked up to me with black hands and face. Kid looked like he just came out a of coal mine. I tried to get a picture, but it didn't really work. And now he's had a bath. Bummer. That's going down as one of my funniest parent moments. I love toddlers!

addendum: hubby came home with a bag of chips and tried to teach it to the kid.  "Say chip"

"Sh..."

I love him even more.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

sick.

I am teh sick.  My kidneys hurt.  I'm trying to water them, but my stomach says no.  I think there's a feud between them.  I went into instacare last night to get a saline drip, but my lungs were apparently so dehydrated they sucked up all the water.  Stupid lungs.  It's air you need!  AIR!  so they had to shut it off so I could breathe.  Once the fluid drained from my lungs it all went to my stomach which promptly rejected it.  Oh well.  I tried.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Balancing Act

I went in for a balance today. That's hippie speak for energy work. That's also hippie speak for....ummm...voodoo.

I love getting balances! It's like taking all the things that are stressing you out and causing physical/mental/emotional symptoms and removing the stress so your body can heal. What I love is that I always learn great life lessons after I have a balance. So, what did I learn today?

What I love about the gospel is that we all have the spirit and we can all receive our own revelation. I also love that I don't have to answer to anyone but God. I love that every challenge we have is an opportunity to grow. I love that I can pray to God but that He also blessed me with a well functioning mind so I can make my own decisions and learn from them. I love that He knows when to let go of my hand and when to hold it.

I've been second guessing myself because of some things people have indirectly said about the way I should live. My balance helped me to let go and be present in my own life instead of making others live it for me. So many times I think we worry about how to be a good mom, or a good wife, a good sister, a good worker...whatever. Maybe there'd be a lot less stress if the focus was on being a good "me".

Friday, November 24, 2006

"Doorbusters"

I hate them. I got $100 off my new camera and a free pack of DVD+R's, but I think I'd rather pay the money next time. This was my first time shopping on "black Friday". I usually like to participate in Buy Nothing Day, and we're just not big shoppers in my family, but I saw the sales and thought, "why not? That's something I've wanted for months". But then I keep looking at ads and can't pass up all those great deals. Maybe it's just electronic stores (circuit city, best buy) that suck though. I was in and out of Sears in 15 minutes, and Office Max, later that day, even gave me a raincheck for the memory cards they sold out of. The sales at the craft stores weren't even worth going to.

But anyway, it felt like semi-controlled looting. Complete madness I tell you. I got the very last one of the camera hubby and I had been eyeing but they were out of everything else. I grabbed it and got in line and waited for 3 1/3 hours to check out. I felt like a freakin' communist.

Next year I'll leave the shopping to all you shoppers out there. I think I'll stick with my counter-culture anti-consumerism....after I finish buying the rest of the things off my list tomorrow, of course.

Monday, November 20, 2006

It's beginning to look a lot like springtime

The weather is, well, nice. Breezy. I think we need to move further north. Like, Hammerfest.... I started hanging up my Christmas lights. I start early so I can have it all done by Thanksgiving. I'm one of those obnoxious people that would bypass Thanksgiving all together if it wasn't for the pie. I love pie. But once that's turkey's in my tummy I go right into Christmas season. The nice weather makes it easy to climb my trees and shimmy up raingutters. I could just buy a ladder, but where's the fun in that? Nope, I go old school.

Perhaps some decorative lighting will appease the snow gods and they will grace us with some frozen precipitation. If that doesn't work I bought a bike this weekend so maybe "murphy's law" will kick in.

Wednesday, November 8, 2006

Diagnosis: endometriosis

That awful, awful pain in my abdomen finally has a suspected culprit. Of course, the only way to actually diagnose endometriosis is a laparoscopy, YUCK! Surgery is also one of the few ways to treat it, including a hysterectomy (no thanks). So we'll try hormone therapy and see if it helps (it does in some women) and of course the usual rounds of alternative therapies. Meanwhile, I get all the pain killers I want. So if you know anyone whose had success treating endometriosis without surgery please let me know. I'm open to a lot of things. For now, I'm willing to give some BC a try, as long as it isn't the pill. HA! I guess God really doesn't want me to have another baby yet :)

And yes, I can smile when I say that.

He's also worried I'm pre-diabetic. Which really pisses me off because I've only been "unhealthy" for about 3 years. 3 years! I spend my whole childhood eating brown rice, broccoli and Chex and then 3 years of fast food and sugar (and like, no exercise) mess me up. Lovely. And just in time for Christmas.

No, I'm actually blessed to get a heads up. I'm glad I mentioned my symptoms (and he noticed my insulin levels) so I have time to turn things around. Looks like someone's getting a new bike. Woohoo! :)

New Bike

Thursday, October 26, 2006

There's a hole in the carpet dear 'liza

We've decided to replace the floors in the bedrooms. Well, maybe I should start at the beginning. We started repainting the bedroom 2 weeks ago and after moving furniture found water damage from the neighbors leaking...something (tub?). So we moved into the boy's room. THAT was a pain. It's smaller, but we actually like it better, "let's stay in this one." "Okay!"

And then I started smelling it. That horrible stench. The previous owner had a cat and apparently kept this cat's litter box ON CARPET! And the carpet reeks of urine. It is so disgusting! I kept complaining to Hubby and tried bleach, lysol, febreze, everything. Want to know how to get rid of the smell of pet urine? Last night I finally got fed up and cut away a good chunk of the offensive material, vacuumed up the old litter remains, and dumped it in the trash. I'm ripping all of it up today. We can sleep in the living room. Nevermind that with doctor appointments and the boy's birthday I have no time to rip up and lay flooring, but since when has that stopped me? I am determined to do this by Saturday's end. So I went to Lowes to look for our flooring and they stopped selling it! So we have to pay $200 more to have the same look of our floors throughout the whole house. But I don't care. I'm so sick of cat pee and carpet and I'll pay anything.

And my husband wonders why I'm not a cat person....

Friday, October 13, 2006

The question isn't "are you crazy?", the question is, "to what extent?"

The more open I've been about my own mental illnesses, the more people I find who feel the same. We're all just a little bit nuts, some more than others. I really believed some of the things I've suffered with no one else (at least in my church) suffered with. I am very pleased to find out how wrong I am. Even people with more severe problems than me feel the same darkness.

I'm so emo.

I read an awesome book last night called, "The Worth of Every Soul" about a man who struggled for years with addiction, depression, and adultery. You read about his journey through excommunication and rebaptism and also his family's struggle as they stuck by him. It just brought me a little bit back to the realization that Christ really did descend below all things and knows exactly how we feel. All the pain, despair, and even feeling like God doesn't care (remember the garden?). He also rose above it so that he could help us do the same. We really can't do it on our own, we don't have to "prove" anything. We can only rise above it all if we use Him. I've learned and forgotten this so many times I can't count. But it never stops being true.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Got a headache?

Licensed to Pill


So, I could've taken Zoloft.  Then I wouldn't have to do difficult therapy.  Yet.  But here are the side effects that occured in more than 15% of patients with my disorders: ejaculation failure (no!!!), dry mouth, diarrhea/loose stools, nausea, insomnia.  There are lot more, but they occured in less than 15%.

You know, sometimes you really do need a good anti-depressant.  But I think more often than not you just need to deal with your issues and come to grips with life.  And honestly, I already have insomnia.  I really don't want to have to wear depends just to avoid feeling like crap (*insert joke here*).

Do we over medicate?  Or do we just have more advances in science to help with lifes ails?  I can see both sides, especially when my friends and I have very real mental disorders.  I would argue though that we should first look toward lifestyle and attitude changes before popping a pill or 10.

Friday, September 22, 2006

Have you cleansed your colon lately?

Anyone here ever done an herbal cleanse before? I cannot recommend them enough. If you've been feeling sluggish, sick, or had really weird looking poop (or none at all) you should look into it. It can be so aggravating when you go into the doctor because you've been sick for months and they tell you, "you're the perfect picture of health" or diagnose you with IBS or fibromyalgia, which translated mean "we don't know".

If not properly taken care of, our bodies build up toxins and diseases. A diet low in fiber and water does not allow the body to properly eliminate these. The waste stays in our bodies festering, no wonder we feel like crap (literally!) Solution: an herbal cleanse followed by a high fiber and water diet. I recommend Tisha Mecham's book "Biokinetic Testing for Health" biokinetic.gif

If you're really curious, we should talk.



Maybe later if I get daring enough I'll talk about Brain Gym, Kinergetics, and Touch for Health.

Hippie enough for ya Shauna?

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Why I Love Burt's Bees

I discovered the lip blam 10 years ago and said goodbye to chapped lips. When I discovered my sodium lauryl sulfate allergy I switched to their toothpaste and saw the end of canker sores. Today I found my son - who had gotten into my makeup - with a mouthful of Burt's Bees Nutmeg Lip Shimmer. Despite the mess, I was relieved I didn't have to worry about the chemicals he ingested.

We all know to keep our bleach and other cleaners up high where baby can't get into them, but do we ever think about our personal care products? After all, nearly all makeup is considered "non-toxic".

This warning is found on Neutrogena liquid foundation : "For external use only. Avoid contact with eye area. If product gets into eyes, rinse thoroughly with water. Discontinue use if signs of irritation or rash appear. Keep this and all drugs out of reach of children. In case of accidental ingestion, seek professional assistance or contact a Poison Control Center immediately." Wow!
I wont claim to have a totally baby-proof home, I'm just very relieved at my choice of personal care items.

Later: How to make your own household cleaners (save money and keep kids safe!)

Friday, September 15, 2006

Monday, September 11, 2006

Feeling bad? We have a pill for that.

prozac.jpg

My therapist thinks I don't need medication. Just lots of work. :) Tom Cruise would be proud.

Saturday, September 9, 2006

Need Support?

Baby Boobs
(after a particularly difficult night)...

Me: I need some support

Hubby: I'll help support you
*cups breasts*

Me: thank you

Hubby: I've been saving that one for years

Thursday, September 7, 2006

The babysitter

Tv Kids

Before I had a child, I swore I would never park them in front of the tv. Silly me. I've heard there are parents who have been successful at following the AAP guidlines of no tv before age 2, but I think they're just an urban legend. Like the Bill Gates/AOL giveaway. Oh well. I guess I knew I was doomed the first time he saw Baby Einstein at the neighbors. Now that is one success I had. I never bought any baby Einstein dvds. Come back in 13 years and read about the time I intend have a nice sit down with my kids about sex and instead simply tell them, "don't do it! You'll get herpes!". My road to hell is both paved and driven on with good intentions.

Wednesday, September 6, 2006

True to my roots

My friends called me granolagirl for a reason, I'm a bit of a granola. I also make really good granola, but that's not why they called me that. Anyway, maybe I can make this a sort of hippie blog where I share all my recipes for natural things and other treehugging things I come across.

Rubber Mulch

I came across rubber mulch this last week in a playground. It looks like pea gravel, but is chopped up old rubber tires. What a great recycling idea! This stuff was soooo comfy! I was bouncing as I walked and only slightly less terrified of my son falling and breaking something. It can also be used as an actual mulch to keep weeds out of garden beds.